Kill Yourself (Part III)
Song Meaning

The lyrics suggest the song is about suicidal depression that the people around the narrators dismiss as noise or a pose. The clearest evidence is in the second verse, where $lick $loth complains that listeners “think I’m joking” about blowing his head open, until the moment someone walks in and finds his body. One listener hears this as a warning that people ignore real suicidal feelings until it is too late 2.

The meaning

The song’s central claim is that these narrators are not performing despair but living it, and that nobody around them believes it. Both verses are built around that gap. Ruby da Cherry opens with “They figure me a dead motherfucker / But I’m just a motherfucker that wanna be dead,” which turns the label others put on him into a plain statement of what he wants. $lick $loth’s verse is more direct: he says he is “always boasting my emotions on how I’m so fucking broken” and then names the cost of being heard as a joke, with the line “’Til the moment you walk in and find my body motionless.” One listener reads this as a warning that people joke about suicide so often that genuine distress goes unheard 2. The wording of the lyric supports that reading: the joke is not defended, it is shown to have a deadline.

A rival reading is that this is shock-rap posturing, with the grim imagery serving the duo’s brand more than any real feeling. The lyrics do contain the mocking energy of someone who knows he will be accused of exactly that, and one annotator hears the verse as a retort to people who think suicidal lyrics are a bid to look cool 2. But the song gives the doubt a place inside the narrator’s own story rather than treating it as something to win. The speaker accepts that nobody will believe him and that the proof, if it comes, is the one outcome that cannot be taken back. That is a statement of isolation, not a boast.

Ruby’s verse supplies the inner side of that isolation. The images are of emptiness: ribs as “an empty cage,” a “black hole in my chest,” a feeling of being “a guest” in his own head. The pun “I’m matter, but I don’t matter” compresses the whole verse into one line, and it is delivered flatly, as a conclusion he has already reached. His plan to get “the highest I can get before I overdose and die” ties the numbness to drug use, and $lick $loth closes by naming the same thing, a mission “to die and blame my addiction.” Both verses treat substance use as part of the despair rather than an escape from it.

The closing lines of Ruby’s verse show how the song thinks about aftermath. His brain is “splattered on the wall,” and the “grey stains won’t dissolve, gonna have to paint it all.” The image is of a mess that others must clean up and cover over, which one listener hears as depression that cannot be painted over and stays in the background 1. The lyric itself makes the simpler point that a death leaves something behind that is hard to hide. Set against the chorus, where a lone voice sings of finding love and needing to be strong or the daylight will be lost, the verses leave the sense of a narrator who has already said it aloud, more than once, to people who heard a performance.

Taken together, the song is less about death than about being unheard. The narrators describe feeling worthless, numb and addicted, but the sharpest thing they say is about the audience: that the words were meant literally and received as entertainment. The song’s tone is flat and cold rather than melodramatic, and that flatness is what makes the warning read as sincere.

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